Alice Glass is a survivor, however she isn’t each survivor.
For her debut solo album, Glass knew she needed the mission to handle her expertise with the band Crystal Castles and the alleged abuse she endured, however she wanted to take action in her personal manner. “The report itself is a final determined cry, nevertheless it’s not one which wants sympathy,” Glass says. “It’s type of an amalgamation of struggling. However I didn’t write from the angle of popping out on the opposite facet as a stronger individual or being sympathized with, it’s someplace within the center. This isn’t an album in regards to the idealized survivor that we see within the media who’s overcome excessive odds. It represents the issues which have occurred in my life, how I’ve taken management and addressed it.”
Glass made her departure from Crystal Castles in 2014 after being part of the band for over eight years. In line with the assertion shared to her web site, Glass met her bandmate Ethan Kath when she was 15 and he was 25. Earlier than and through her time in Crystal Castles, Glass alleges that she’d been stalked, manipulated, sexually harassed, managed and bodily abused by Kath. She started releasing solo music in 2015 and put out an EP in 2017, which briefly touched on her expertise as a survivor. Nonetheless, it wasn’t till now that she felt able to showcase the true depths of her story.
“I used to be truthfully getting a number of stress from older groups that I used to be working with and they’d be like, ‘Hey, when is all of this abuse stuff going to be over?’” Glass says. “I wasn’t therapeutic on the proper tempo that everybody needed me to. I simply began to resent this good survivor who got here out of it stronger. As a result of what in the event you don’t come out of it stronger? Does that make you a weaker individual? And if it does, ought to that be identified?”
The album, which hits streaming platforms on January 28 on Consuming Glass Information, is entitled “PREY//IV.” Just like the songs that wound up making the album, Glass was very strategic about representing her survivor story on her personal phrases and in her personal phrases. “The total title is ‘PREY//IV Alice Glass,’” Glass says. “I used to be raised Catholic and I needed to herald the concept of praying. I wrote it as prey as a result of I really feel like younger ladies and younger males are sometimes chosen to be different individuals’s prey and so they don’t have a selection about that. You could be focused and do not know. You possibly can assume that you simply’re dwelling a very unbiased life and there may very well be darkish forces which are secretly making an attempt to get to you.”
When engaged on this mission, Glass was intentional in not together with any collaborations on the album. It was essential to maintain the story her personal whereas sustaining full inventive management of the mission. She did, nonetheless, entrust producer Jupiter Keyes to assist all through the method. “It’s been years of labor within the making between me and my producer Jupiter,” Glass says. “I actually like getting within the studio and making an attempt a bunch of concepts straight away. I’m extra of a top-liner, melodic individual so we’ll resolve on the instrumentals that we’re going to make use of for a chunk and construct off from there. For each music now we have on the report, I believe I’ve written and recorded, like, 10 melodies for every one. There’s a number of trial and error as a result of I need to have the appropriate emotion for each music and melody.”
Within the years spent engaged on this album, Glass recorded dozens upon dozens of songs. The truth is, she admits that when she began compiling the tracklist, she felt like she was drowning in 4 years’ value of melodies and beats. However, she finally settled on a fortunate 13 songs, every of which supplies followers perception into her story past what they’ve learn on-line or gathered from her earlier solo music.
“There’s a music referred to as ‘Honest Sport’ and in it I’m just about gaslighting myself with issues my abuser stated to me,” Glass says. “At first, it was nearly like this therapeutic train and it was form of scary to pay attention again to the actual quotes that had been stated to me. It was intense for me once we had been modifying and fixing it, however then I began to get used to it. The extra you get used to it, the much less influence the phrases have and the extra ridiculous it appears. Now, after I take heed to it, I dance and quote issues from it like, ‘If anybody knew the actual you, you wouldn’t have any associates.’”
With this album, Glass is laying all of it on the road. She’s not afraid to talk brazenly about her alleged abuse and has nothing to cover behind. She has discovered the arrogance to handle the scenario head-on, buying and selling within the metaphor-laden lyrics of her earlier work and embracing writing within the first individual.
“I do know that seems like such a small factor, however earlier than there was nearly a rule about by no means utilizing the primary individual or making it clear about how you’re feeling about something,” Glass explains. “This led to an enormous emotional disconnection, as a result of I couldn’t specific [my] true emotions and [music] needed to be this portrait. I’ve actually put myself on the market extra, regardless that it makes me extra susceptible, nevertheless it’s absolutely value it and I’ve undoubtedly grown extra assured as an artist.”
As of late it’s fairly frequent for a public determine to come back ahead about their alleged abuse, nevertheless it wasn’t all the time this manner. The #MeToo motion, as began by Tarana Burke, was comparatively unknown and wouldn’t come to mainstream recognition for an additional decade again when Glass was a member of Crystal Castles. Within the mid-2000s, society wasn’t prepared to completely confront the problem, and neither was Glass. That panorama has modified considerably during the last couple of years, for celebrities and on a regular basis survivors alike.
“I’m fortunate to be a lady within the occasions we stay in now as a result of I’ve my very own voice on social media and other people imagine me,” Glass says. “I simply need to characterize lots of people that I do know are on the market. Folks solely learn about my story as a result of I make music and [my story] has been publicized, however grooming is that this big unstated factor. I want to let individuals know they’re not alone of their emotions of worthlessness or hopelessness and there are moments of embracing positivity, even when it’s simply embracing the darkness.”
In sharing her story, Glass has created a exceptional bond together with her followers, with advantages going each methods. Her music has supplied assist for different survivors who’ve felt completely alone of their struggles, and in return Glass has been in a position to lean on her followers in a manner she by no means imagined doable. This assist has given her the power to maintain going and she or he’s discovered a technique to carry it together with her all over the place she goes. “Once I performed my first solo present, everybody threw white roses on the stage,” Glass says. “It was actually overwhelming. It impressed me to get a white rose tattooed, which in my head represents a brand new hope.”
Along with the white rose, Glass has collected another items to remind her of what she’s overcome. The tattoos should not designed to rehash the previous or deliver up unhealthy recollections, however to behave as a robust assertion of her freedom. “I’ve some chain tattoos to characterize breaking free from the chains of my previous,” Glass says. “I actually like the sensation of being tattooed. I believe it was cathartic simply even having the individuals who tattoo me be sympathetic about it. I used to be form of nervous about artists being judgemental, however they had been actually cool and we turned associates.”
Alice Glass spent the primary half of her profession shrouded in darkness. Nonetheless, by the assistance of her followers and associates, she’s realized to embrace darkness on her personal phrases. “I’ve been in bands since I used to be 13 and I really feel like I’m not educated for anything,” Glass says. “It was not likely one other thought. I spent eight years on tour, numerous hours within the studio, and I’ve put in a number of time doing issues for another person’s imaginative and prescient. I needed to do it by myself.”